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[Feb. 3rd, 2012|12:03 am] |
I have to learn to trust God with my worries. always afraid that i might not be good enough in many aspects of my life. I find myself looking forward to QT each day, and summarizing what i have learnt out loud to my sis who might (or might not) give me some attention ^^
Today's Skillful Teacher's course was interesting and time really passed very quickly. Something that was highlighted many times throughout the day was 'Do not BURN yourself out'. Yes, we should give our students the attention they need, spend time planning the lessons etc. But allowing our blood to boil over small issues is not the way to go. We should not leave the school having negative thoughts about the kids or return home half dead cos we were shouting half the time. (i'm thankful that until now, i do not have to shout much yet) Learnt how building positive relationships with the kids was the best way to minimize or remedy behavioural problems. Never engage in a power struggle with them too because.. they WILL win anyway.
We had alot of opportunities to share our experiences and to exchange pointers/ methods to deal with different issues. Knowing these skills or method is one thing, being able to match these methods effectively to our kids is another =)
This random girl i was talking to, told me her experience in a sec school. She cannot wait for her bond to end because she feels that sch work and her students are absorbing too much of her life. She cannot keep up with all their energy and need for attention. I don't think i'd want to reach that stage.
Looking forward to fridays =) I need to slp -.- |
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[Jan. 1st, 2012|03:06 am] |
[1st jan 2012]
Was quite overwhelmed by all the events/ issues that took place this (last) year. the joys, disappointments, uncertainties, excitement, anxieties, helplessness, love and so much more!
new year resolutions have never worked for me. but i shall stay up to think about things before sleeping.
reflect on what i have done that i will remind myself NOT to do.
thoughts that i have, that shouldn't be there. (see, i'm having the urge to shout at my neighbours next door who are making too much noise RIGHT NOW! *help* i need self-control..)
Think about what i wanna achieve this year, commitments that i want to make, roles that i wanna play better, how to be a better steward of my money, relationships that i wanna build (or let go off =/), i'm sure there are alot more! This is why i need more time to reflect.
Morning everyone =) it's already 3am! |
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[Nov. 13th, 2011|01:07 am] |
12th nov 2011
was pleasantly surprised by them today. i can only thank God for them *grins*
germ: i'm telling you now that you are good at it. (aww ^^ she was so genuine about it)
i know i shouldn't be seeking for men's approval but it's these little comments that keep me going.
i think i've grown to accept how self-centred or selfish people can be. and it's times like these where we will see it most evidently. again, i can only trust that this is part of God's plan. and we should not blame Him for mistakes that human make.
but then again, these are just based on my personal biased judgement which, is flawed.
i think i get discouraged really easily. especially by negative vibes that i get from people. and it affects me alot. ALOT.
i'm feeling really apprehensive about the coming year. school, family, church, health, r/s w nat, and the list goes on...
i'm not saying that there's anything wrong with what i have just mentioned. i just do not feel as excited as i usually feel towards a new year.
is it fair that all of you came.. make such an impact in my life and then just disappear suddenly.. behaving as if i nolonger matter. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2011|01:10 am] |
I'm so not looking forward to tmr's psle marking at hong kah primary. No idea who's going there w me. Something I'm thankful for is that I can report at 11am! Which means I have the morning to have breakfast w nat bef he goes for his lessons :)) looking forward! And tmr's my first ukulele lesson! Whee.. Who says there should be Monday blues :)) 16/10/11 Posted via LiveJournal app for iPad. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2011|01:41 am] |
[17th sept 2011] Went for the '7 Habits' course durkng my sept hols. It's supposedly a $1k course o.O wow the sch's willing to spend so much on us?! Anw, i was very inspired to 'never stop learning!' managed to convince myself to find time to pick up a new skill :) I'm very excited abt it! Gonna learn a new musical instrument! :) been spending quite alot of time with it cos I registered and could collect the instrument on the spot. Can't wait for lessons to begin in mid Oct! It kinda allows me to have some ME time that I've been lacking :) time away from the internet, time to upgrade my skills :) Few things struck me during the social media workshop. One thing was, we are able to spend hours on the internet.. what about the bible? I really like Florence's baby! Dont know how to spell his name :( but he's soooo adorable! The way he looks at food and the way he tries to lick his mum's collar button. Super cute! He's soo ROUND :) haa ^^ ok enough -.- I have many random thoughts that I would like to write here for keepsake. Cos I like to re-read my old entries.. But I'm tired :/ night. /myheartshattered/ Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2011|01:56 am] |
4th september 2011 (sunday)
one term of school just ended!
last tuesday night, while i was preparing to think of what to say to my kids' parents during the meet the parents' session the next day, it dawned upon me how little I know my kids. i think i havent really been spending much time 'outside class' to talk to them or to get to know them better. That's def something i really wanted to do when i thought of myself as a teacher. think i'll put in more effort in term 4 =)
teacher's day was a special day for me. other than the fact that it's my first official teacher's day, it was also when i felt that my p3kids do appreciate me/ like being in my class =) (no matter how much few of them can drive me up the wall cos they refuse to do their work, lie to me etc etc ><) and all their little notes were so touching! *sniffs*
i really DO NOT like flowers =/ *feels bad*
was spending the last few hours just planning the sitting arrangement for term 4, choosing group leaders, planning remedial groups, printing consent forms, refining the class' rules and routines etc.
it's so time consuming but i really enjoy doing all these =) and i love to see how the kids adapt to my way of managing the class and enjoying my lessons (that's assuming that they enjoy. heh)
i am enjoying my time in this school! =)
this coming week is supposed to be my holiday. MY HOLIDAY! HELLO!
only monday's (tmr) gonna be free cos i have full days at sch for the next 4 days. sigh.
today was a rather enjoyable day =) didn't expect this random outing to be successful. weirdly.. the guys were all from vjc and adrian went "wow! aren't u all lucky to be dating vj boys?" -.- i miss having jim and adrian in yf *sniffs*
Looking forward to tmr =) *ME-time!* |
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[Apr. 27th, 2011|11:01 pm] |
today marks the end of my formal observations! *happy =)*
the past few weeks have been crazy and.. i dont even want to describe the stress/ pressure that i felt -.-
6more days with the kids. kind of she bu de. now that i've got even the annoying ones on my side. i should describe the formal ob by my nie sup when i have the time (soon). it was dramatic. the annoying ones really got on my nerves >< and.. you will find out what i did the next time i share k. for now.. i'm just so thankful that God has carried me through this. i think my r/s w my ct isn't fantastic but it's better. and each week, my lp somehow gets done on time and i'm so glad that i'm able to deliver it properly =) seeing the class get motivated to do their math and seeing them improve is worth all the effort that i have put in. poor nat had to bear with all my rubbish. really thankful for him. think i wont be able to find someone else who's as ___________. <-- fill in the blanks =) i wonder if i'll be staying in that school. heh. for now, i'm just keeping june in mind. so excited about the trip! about sr! and it's also when i will officially start teaching! ^^
went to paint my nails =P
woman said that it was too short, cannot do french. gotta wait 2 weeks. ok! by thn i'll do a polka dot one =)
gonna bathe and slp. night ppl! |
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[Mar. 27th, 2011|12:09 am] |
right now, i'm panicking over a stupid lp.
weekends are always burnt.
sometimes i wonder.. is it worth it.. =/ |
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[Mar. 18th, 2011|12:41 pm] |
Great. I'm in a cab now. Was walking out of the house and my arms naturally flew towards the cab when it exit the condo -.- at least I won't be late -.- If there was an instrument to measure mood like how you measure temperature, mine at the moment will be negative 100. It means 'leave me alone' -.- I think I must hav gotten up on the wrong side of bed td. I wanted to bring work out to do while waiting for marker but didn't because I would hav too many things to carry (which will worsen my mood) -.- but I hav so much work to do :( and I can't say no to sth cos i agreed to it alr. But what can be done in an hr?! :/ I really don't know. The thought of having to travel is &$!?#^%?!! <-- indescribable. not vulgar k :( mayb I can watch a movie on my own!! :) since I have time to kill and I din bring work out -.- urgh.there's nth nice to watch :/ Was reluctant to leave hse when I was already late. Thank God for ryl who never fails to cheer me up! enough to nudge me out of the house. Yep. And that's how I landed in this cab. I'm going to get gongcha. Nth cheers me up more than green milk tea :) (oops. Don't tell yen n ceeh. Heh)
See, my drug clearly helps :) Posted via LiveJournal.app. |
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[Mar. 11th, 2011|02:26 am] |
heh. it's 2.30am and i'm still up -.-
did this simple comic strip for the kids. i hope they get it.. hmm
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